You Have My Attention

I just kinda realized, I've been ignoring the people around me. I always pride myself on being able to peg everyone's personality and such but I can't even keep a hold of the friends I already have. Well... I do... I keep hold of them but I don't keep track of them.

Here's what made me realize this. A friend of mine, her engagement is on the rocks. Okay, so I've never met him and every time she mentions him I roll my eyes because she seems to constantly mention him (no offense) but she's happy. I mean really what more can I ask for but that she's happy.

I don't know how to tell my friend Elimy that she should just give up on the guy who keeps breaking her heart. I mean, when they're together she goes between happy and in hell but when they're apart she's in hell for a little bit but after a month realizes it was for the better and starts to be really happy and then he talks to her and her life seems to go to hell off and on again.

This leads me to my friends Karlie and Lynn. I consider them both my best friends and yet every time I talk to them I feel like I'm learning a bunch of new things even if it's only been for like, a week.

I was reading Karlie's blog and that's what made me realize it. It made me think about how much I really have been missing all this time. The worst part is it's not even because I've been ignoring them for internet or TV or random stuff like that. It's been because I haven't been able to get outside myself for long enough to pay attention.

With Lynn it just feels like she hasn't been telling me things. Like she's been trying to hide things from me and I can't help but feel bad that I don't know what they are.

I think going back to my old school will help. I think everything will get better. At this school I have nearly no motivation. Along with that I should probably go start my math homework. Ah well, see ya.

"It happened again,
You're afraid to open up or just give in
'Cause someone's gonna hurt you
Like you've been in the past
Heal the wounds, be broken glass,
Now you're jaded but please don't fade away" -- Artist vs. Poet "Giving Yourself Away"